6:00 am- snooze alarm clock
6:15 am- stops my alarms. Turns to hug you.
6:16 am- realizing you're no longer here
6:45 am- Abby walks in "get up woman"
7:00 am- Driving kids to school
7:20 am- Driving to work, but not even know I am driving
7:45 am- Crying to myself knowning I have to force myself to be ok
8:00-5:00 pm- Watching myself work because I am not even here
5:30-9:00 pm- Pretending to be okay for the girls. Pretending I am not dying inside, Pretending I am strong for them because they need to know I can handle it all
10:00 pm- dreading the restroom and hating to shower because you're no longer with me in there
11:00 pm-6:00am- laying with my eyes close remember everything about you not even sure if I ever fall asleep fully
6:00 am-snooze alarm clock
6:15 am- stops my alarms. Turns to hug you
6:16 am- realizing you're no longer here.
**plays on repeat**
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