I Have 12 hours before I see Matthew for the last time in body form. He is no longer there.
I like to believe his soul has moved on and his spirit is free.
I am not sure if I believe at this point in my life but I do have to keep the faith that there is a higher up.
The first night Matthew was in the hospital he told me he "I saw heaven and It was beautiful. Everyone was there"
These little quotes give me hope that Matthew got to be with his grandma who he adored. I told Matthew then "If you want to go and you love it you should go"
At that point I could not be selfish. I know he was sick he kept telling me his body hurt.
Well, my love your body is no longer in pain and tomorrow I will see your body form, but I know your spirit and soul form is gone.
Why am I so strong you ask?
How Do I keep going? These girls of mine are the ones. I wouldn't have made it so far in life if it wasn't for them.
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