Tomorrow Matthew Will be laid to rest, and I am ready for it to be over. I don't want to deal with it anymore. Getting the last outfit, he will ever wear. Getting asked things or thinking of setting up a memorial table for him.
I am ready for this to be over with! I want to close this chapter in my life and move on. Yes, I know this chapter will never be over. I am always going to be grieving his day. Anytime my birthday rolls around how will it be about me because all I am going to think about is him.
I love you Matthew and I will always love you.
One day we will spend eternity together.!
Tomorrow is going to be a hard day for everyone. I know for sure I won't be sleeping.
I don't think I have even been sleeping. I feel like I am just laying with my eyes closed letting our memories replay.
I do know for sure I plan to disconnect from a lot of people after this. I don't care who you are only the real one who cared about me during this time will be in contact with me. The rest I can care less.
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