I go back to work on the 23rd. Pretty soon if you ask me. How am I getting by? I am staying distracted. I am just putting myself in other people problems to hear them vent or lend a hand so, I don't have to worry about mine.
Is it working definitely not but at this point I am willing try anything to keep me going.
There are moments of silence where I can feel the room air get heavy and thick like if it's a fog clouding over me.
I catch myself staring at a single spot trying to get back to myself. Like it is my brain trying to catch up with the motions. When I am driving, I am just going but nothing is moving. I am aware of everything going around but it's like a game.
So, I get home, and I stay distracted. I am alone and I pretend to be distracted. I stay distracted. Even if I'm not distracted, I stay distracted.
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