I keep my eyes closer for longer when I have a memory of you.
It allows me to sit with you in real time. I know once I open my eyes I am back to reality. The only thing about reliving all the good memories It also brings a flood gate of the bad ones. The things that I regret. Things I wish I could have stopped. Words I should have said.
Not all memories are good memories, and I am not talking about just with the person you love. I also mean with lost and past loves. Family and friends and also the random people you meet along the way. The memories also flood my memory.
Some I wish I could see again. Some I wish I could erase every memory of.
I hold the memories that bring tears to my eyes and grip tightly those of the ones that remind me to keep going and stay strong.
The painful ones are the ones that haunt me the most. The screams, the tears, the emptiness and the feeling of not being able to breath all done in silence because I could not be weak. I could not show defeat.
Our memories are everything, take photos, laugh and smile and cry. Do it all with those who love you and you love. It is all you will have left. It is all you will be able to hold on too. I wish I had more but I have enough to remember the feeling of true love.
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