I keep telling myself I need to rebuild myself because if not I won't get out of bed. I have to live for myself. I could say for my kids but realistically I need to live for myself. I love Matthew and I can never stop loving him. I don't know what the future holds for me, but I do know that I have to keep moving forward.
I can't keep allowing my mental health to affect my everyday life. So, I am going to therapy. I am back on my medication, and I started praying. Reading a small book of daily devotions. I have to start somewhere. I have never been super religious, but Matthew and I did talk about going back to church. I guess this is the right time to start going back. I won't force the girls to go but I will take them if they ask.
Here is too rebuilding myself. One day at a time. One hour at a time. One minute at a time.
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