I had to get out of San Antonio for a while. If you know me, I hate to travel. I am never someone who really cares or thinks much about going anywhere, but that has all changed. My anxiety and panic attacks has got the best of me that I really needed something new.
So, I packed the girls up for a quick trip to Corpus Christi. Yes, I know it isn't far. Everyone goes there, but if you knew me, I go nowhere. Especially alone with my girls.
So, I got a room for the night took them swimming the second we got there and then down to sleep. Had breakfast at the hotel and packed off and headed to the beach. It was exactly what I needed. I sat there quiet watching the girls run and scream and I knew I was going to be okay. I can breathe today. I had no panic attacks so either I am cured, or the medication is working.
Either way I knew he would be proud of me I knew matt would have loved every second of it. I thought about him often while I was there. How could I not think of him on father's day plus his birthday is coming up soon. I don't want to think or dwell on it, but the truth is I think about him every second of the day. I try and keep myself busy. It doesn't always work.
Lately I just been reading to get lost in a new world.
Either way I know I am going to be okay! We all are!
Hang in there everyone going through some heartbreaking things.
I love you all !!
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