The weird thing about dramatic life experiences happening to someone it sometimes makes you wonder and think about the afterlife. If there is a God or some higher power. This isn't just when someone dies. This is when life gets too hard for someone. We are not all built the same way, but we all go through things in life.
I have been through enough things in my adulthood to last me the rest of my life. I started to pray and search for answers on where to go and who to talk too. I really don't want to always talk to friends and family because I don't want to be a burden. Even though they say I am not.
I don't want to leave my emotional baggage for someone else to have to dwell with. So, I started praying. I started meditating. I will be honest I was never the most religious person because I was always angry at God for making the people the way they are. For having them taken from. For me going through so much heartbreak.
I now have been turning to God for guidance and help because what I was doing before really wasn't working for me and I guess I am at the age where I need to believe in something. There has to be hope and more out there for me to know I will be okay.
So, here is to a new chapter of trying to find something to let me know there is more out there for me.
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