Every moment of every day I pray for your soul and spirit. You were kind, sweet, and gentle. You always wanted the world to look like a better place because you always had demons. There was nothing none of us could do or say to bring the love you craved. I know the time we spent together you always expressed you had found happiness with us.
You got to have a family like you wanted. I wish we had made it work sooner rather than later, but the time was never right. We did try over the past few years, but this past time together was the right time.
I know we kept you alive longer. I know I helped you through the hard nights where you felt so alone and down that I would find you crying in the shower. I will remember the nights where we cried together. I will remember how heartbroken you were because of your past.
You always thought you had to stay the same way, but you didn't. I made sure you knew you were worth more and you did not have to be that guy everyone knew you as. People put it in your head that you were never going to change. I let you know you could be more. You tried to be more.
You changed your whole lifestyle for us and to prove you loved me. While the rest of the world can pretend our relationship was nothing those who know you knew you were happy. That you found something you had been searching for.
The 3 weeks of you in the hospital and going to hospice was the hardest things I ever had to go through. Fighting to be with you and you fighting to be with me. I know we were meant to be. You were my best friend, my soul mate and my heart and soul.
You made me feel like the prettiest girl in the world and you loved me with a love that was more than love. You appreciated all that I did for you and gave you. You always made sure to tell me. I will always hold the words close to me. I miss giving us each other 10 reasons why we love each other. The list is never ending.
Our love will be never ending. I will love you more today more than yesterday, but not as much as I will tomorrow. Your memory will never be forgotten. My love will always belong to you. Your secrets and darkness will stay with me. you are now forever at peace, and I hope you are feeling the love you always deserved wherever you may be. I am hoping it is heaven being you said you saw it and you thought it was beautiful.
I love you my sweet man! One day we will spend eternity together.
Forever Your Mrs. Tracy
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